Yep, we’re still stuck at home. One thing is for sure, I cannot believe it is already August.

I’m going to be honest, at the beginning of quarantine, I was pretty positive. I thought I could take this time to really work on myself, read some books, build my resume, and figure out what I want to pursue after graduating. Now that four months have passed, I feel like I haven’t accomplished much. Sure, I read a bunch of books, completed summer school, got my G1, and have seen a significant improvement in my fitness in preparation for the volleyball season. I’m not sure if it’s only me, but that list seems a little short. 

I’m the kind of person who needs to be productive and busy pretty much 24/7, or else I immediately start to get restless. The only way I can possibly describe this feeling I have right now is lost. After my summer course, I was hoping to have a job while focusing on my training. That obviously didn’t work out because my parents decided it was too dangerous for me to work during the pandemic, especially when we always seem to be on the verge of a second wave. 

Trying to find something I genuinely enjoy is a bit of a struggle for me. There are so many career options out there that appeal to me, and the fear of making the wrong decision is, at times, a bit daunting to me.

Despite all my worries, I’ve realized that that’s all they are. I have been learning to be more grateful these last few months and with so much happening around us, it’s been hard to keep up. All I can do is try my best to stay positive and trust that life will take me where I’m meant to go.

I have all these thoughts and opinions that I want to have a chance to express openly during these frustrating times. I guess that’s what this blog is for. Hopefully, anyone reading these posts can relate. To me, when I knew that I wasn’t the only one feeling a certain way, it almost always made me feel better. So, that’s what I’m hoping to do here for all you amazing people.